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That took some of the excitement away… oh well… just how life is sometimes.
Just one of those life things that will pass… don’t worry Nicole!
Weekend Madness
Helping Chris with Chemistry (I’m really starting to like this stuff… General anyway… Organic can just be gone), pictures with Nicole (AWESOME!), field trip and Track and Field CIF with my mom (I love her), church, a smattering of homework (a couple of papers, a pillbug… yes, pillbug… project, etc.), reading (Xenocide will be finished this weekend… Orson Scott Card is pretty much incredible), and Mewithoutyou concert! Geez… Haven’t been excited for a weekend in a long time. Wish I could throw some Munchkin in there as well. That would make it complete. YAY!
photographs + a bit of life.: Spiritual Emphasis Week [Day 1]
Some reflections about Jesus and things.
[Dealing with past mistakes and regrets] workshop #1: We wrote at least one regret on a piece of paper. We placed them in a huge mixing bowl. I joked in my head that it would be simply wonderful if we could just burn all regrets away, but realized that we…
Amassakoul
Looking at some chemistry in my MCAT study materials that I’ve never seen before… bummer. At least the topic is kind of physic-y (yeah, I used it). Tinariwen is helping to relieve the stress over it though. This album is different from the other one that I own. Awesome is all I’ve got to say. Lots of ululating. Can’t go wrong. Wish I didn’t have such a hard time trying to pronounce the Arabic Bea is using all the time now. Someday I will have to figure out the sound system. It’s totally different from any other language I’ve spoken, or know bits and pieces of.
I’ll have to pull out my old chemistry book and figure this out.
Almost time for class finally. Time has been going by really slowing today.
Work is a refuge of people who have nothing better to do
I wish I could say that I had nothing better to do… I worked today… Thursdays are the hardest because I tutor for 4 hours, go to a 2 hour Ecology class, and then tutor another 2 hours… gets rough sometimes. Oh well. It was nice today anyway. Got some studying done for my Ecology test (a mostly successful testing experience), listened to Jaclyn talk about her latest “adventure,” complained (my favorite thing to do… I have a calendar in at school called “Life is Crap”… gives me something extra to complain about. It often serves the opposite purpose and reminds me that life really isn’t crap and I shouldn’t complain… see previous Dostoevsky quote), and ate a delicious salad with broccoli on the side.
Found out that Sean likes raw broccoli too… Epic win on his part.
Ok, that’s about it.
These are some of the plant species that grow behind my campus at CSUSB. I think they’re fantastic. Mostly I’m posting these for Nicole so she knows what’s out there :D
Silence
So, I was silent today. Mostly. Bea and I have decided that it’s impossible to go completely silent at a university without people thinking you’re a complete jerk. Plus, I had some stuff to work out with a friend today so I had to talk a bit. Maybe I’ll be silent an extra hour to make up for it? Though when I was talking, I kept it to a minimum… oh well. I think awareness was raised regardless. We passed out our little cards to people we saw.
In other news. I’ve been lazy with my homework. Got lots to do this week. I’ve been really good about keeping up with my MCAT studies, however, which is really good. Halfway through the General Chemistry, about a third through Organic (ugh, how horrible is she) and only have a few chapters left of Physics (by far my easiest subject after the Biology section). Seems like I’m keeping a pretty good schedule.
To live without Hope is to cease to live…
Yesterday at our Good Friday service, Pastor Dave talked about how the Jews didn’t know what God was doing through the death of Jesus on that Friday until His perfect plan was revealed through Christ’s victory over sin and death that glorious Sunday. As believers, we are often stuck in Friday mode. We question what God could possibly be trying to accomplish through the ups and downs of life. I’ve been stuck in that mode. I have a dear friend who doesn’t know the truth of Christ, and his life is stuck in a hopeless endeavor to gain approval and self-worth through other people. The goals he has in life are in a vain attempt to find his own worth, and he is seeking it from the wrong people.
Church services and Bible studies have been hard lately because every time I feel touched by what Pastor Dave is saying, by something we are discussing as a group, or the words to a favorite worship song and I (metaphorically) stand in awe of my God and what He has done for me and for my fellow believers, I feel tears coming because my friend doesn’t share those same feelings of amazement for the One who should be his everything, who IS everything.
Yet, when I sit there grieving over my friend, I can remember that God IS faithful. The Fridays of life do not last. Through this, He has a perfect and wonderful plan. I can pray for my friend, continue to invite him to church, hold on to the hope that one day he will come or realize that Christ is all he needs, and rest in my Savior, and rejoice that He has revealed himself to me, because it’s nothing I have done.
